school in general

 it wasn't all bad but there was more bad than good. the things i wanted to learn, i was told i was too young for and the things I was made to learn bored me.

7th grade was the best though, i was in a regular class all day and with my best friend. 

third grade

 when I was in 3rd grade they did what they called mainstreaming. that's where they put a disabled kid in a " regular " classroom. i guess they wanted normal kids to get used to disabled kids or disabled kids to get used to the normal kids. hello im the only gimp in my family so i am already use to "normal"

i was put in a 3rd grade class for 30 min a day to begin with. i was also put next to a hateful girl whe with look at me like i disgusted her while she whispered how she hated me,how im ugly and how she wished i was dead,and that was just the 1st day. i put up with that for months and when I tried to tell someone i was told to ignore it.

the next year i was back in the same class for 2 hours a day and a  new bully who was almost as bad.

fire drill horror

 every few months we had a fire drill,where the loud alarm that sounded like an angry moose would go off and everyone went outside.

one day I was left alone in the lunch room again and the fire drill went off.here i am 6 years old alone,unable to unlock the brakes on my chair with that alarm going off and im there crying and screaming.

i dont remember if they forgot me or took me outside with the other kids.

can we say the beginning of abandonment issues?